And yet he wondered what it was

that filled him with the inevitable onrush of guilt and shame that inevitably accompanied such thoughts.  Some vague, foggy notion of the Social Contract; the belief that Killing is Wrong?  Perhaps.  The fear that he was, perhaps — given the right combination of time, disposition, opportunity, armament, provocation — more than capable of launching into violence?  Fear that he could kill?

He was often darkly amused by the phrase “take a life.”  Would he in fact be taking it, grabbing it as if it were a mugger’s spoils and skulked off into some generic darkness?  Would he make it his own?  Collect it, as a trophy?  Or was he simply halting it — halting it, and all that it brought into — or took from — the world?